One of the best things I've done in the past year is join a TG Support Group,
and I would definately urge any of you out there who can to do so as well. For a while I'd been dressing on my own, in the privacy of my own home, but after a while that simply wasn't enough for me, especially after I discovered the Internet and saw just how many girls like me there were out there in the big wide world!
Once dressed I walked downstairs in my skirt, blouse, high heels etc and nervously entered the room where most of the noise was coming from...at long last I was dressed as a woman and in the presence of lots of other TVs! The feeling of release at at long last being allowed to be myself was truely exhilarating, and everyone immediately made me feel at home and commented on my clothes and told me how nice and pretty I looked. The one thing I had been slightly concerned about before hand was whether there would be other people like myself who felt feminine and dressed and acted as ordinary females, or whether the group would turn out to be populated with wall-to-wall drag queens. Luckily this proved not to be the case...Most of the people were in exactly the same boat as me and were (thankfully) simply ordinary everyday people apart from the fact that although they were anatomically male they all had (like me) a very powerful female side to their personality.
Since joining Renaissance I've made lots of femme friends who I can socialise with en femme, discuss things with and - just as important - have a laugh with...after all what's the point in dressing if you're not having fun? I get to show off pretty clothes to other girls (instead of just to myself), I can sit how I like, be as femme as I like, I get to chat about clothes and makeup; all the things I long to talk about but usually can't. Basically, I get to indulge in girltalk; something I adore! Best of all I now get to go clubbing with my friends, so if you see a beautiful brunette some Monday night at Flamingoes in Blackpool come over and say "Hi"...it just might be me!
The point of all this (yes, there is a point) is to demonstrate how you can enrichen your live if you can find a good TG group to join. Most members value discretion just as much as you undoubtedly do, so you'll be safe should you not wish for the world and his wife to learn all about your "other side". Dressing with like-minded friends is so much better than dressing on your own and you get to develop a femme social life of your own with your new femme friends. If you're firmly in the closet and in a relationship you can choose how often you get to go to the meetings, and at least an occational visit is better than never at all. A good support ground is like a sheltered harbour, where you can safely be yourself. If you haven't yet joined one try and locate one...and start to live your femme life to the full!
I came across my local TV/TS Group almost by accident while surfing the TG websites; I emailed the girl who'd mentioned it in her website (my friend Suzanne) and she emailed me back, telling me a bit about the group, where it met and when, and urged me to come along to the next meeting. The first Tuesday I was due to go I was excited all day long, and as I drove from work (in male mode) I could feel all this excitement mixing inside me with a rising sense of nervousness. I parked my car, got my things together and walked, my heart in my mouth, towards the house where the group met. Lynda, who hosted the group came to the door and opened it. I very nervously asked her if this was where Renaissance (not in any way connected with the US group of the same name met) and I was welcomed in and shown to a room where I could dress. Alone in that room, changing into my femme clothes I could almost taste the anticipation... at long last I was going to be with other people just like me, who understood exactly how I felt and felt the same way too. Now I truely wasn't alone!