by
Lee Frances Heller
This is the first article that Lee Heller ever published under the Grace and Lace heading
"But as for thee (Moses), stand here by Me, and I will speak unto you all the commandments and the statutes and the ordinances which you shall teach them, that they may DO THEM IN THE LAND which I give them to possess." Deuteronomy 5:31. (Caps mine LF)
These commandments (not the 10), statutes and ordinances were for the Israelites within the "fences" of the Land that God gave them to inhabit. Thus the "fence Laws." These Laws are found recorded beginning with chapter 21 of Exodus and the first verse. "Now these are the ordinances which you (Moses) shall set before them" and on it goes through the remainder of Exodus and on thru Leviticus, Numbers and Deuteronomy. They were all merciless do's and don'ts. We will deal with the Ten Commandments at a later time. Even though we can't live up to them, they serve God's purpose in our Lives; even today.
The ordinance with which crossdressers (CD's) are concerned is the one that is found in Deu. 22:5. This is the ordinance that states that a woman shall not wear the garments of a man, nor shall a man wear the garments of a woman and those who do are an abomination to God.
Christ, in His atoning death, has forgiven us of all of our transgressions. Colossians 2:13.
Col. 2:14 reads, "--- Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to His cross." If you can picture Deu. 22:5 nailed to the cross, then you have the picture.
I am having a hard time not straying into side issues, but space is limited and ordinances are the subject and I'll keep with that.
STOP DISCRIMINATING AGAINST OURSELVES
Like it or not, we are male chauvinists. We discriminate against that woman in us, our second self. At times we give way, throw away or burn all of her vesture. We say to her, "That's it babe. You're history." , and she goes. Never underestimate the power of a (our) woman. She's a fighter and she comes back in all of her splendor and glory. So then we go into rank denial. She just stands there and taps her foot --- waiting for you, as she knows that you'll be with her shortly. When you finally do join her, you let her know that no one else can know about her. She's a second class citizen, when all the time she is the best part of you and she knows it. You start condemning yourself. Guilt builds up. You try to compromise with her. If she will just go and come at your bidding, everything will be alright. She won't cooperate. You see how we discriminate against ourselves. The foregoing is my own personal observations from my own life. That's the way that I was.
I thought that God put Deu. 22:5 in His Bible just for me. It tortured me for years. I was allowing something dead to flog me. That's why I am so intent on cleaning this matter up. And, perhaps, overzealous in doing it. I well know the necessity of secrecy in our Lives, but I am speaking of being free in the sense that we recognize the woman within us and not allow her to through us into a bad guilt trip. The way out of that is in bringing Jesus Christ into your Life; and both of you resting in Him and knowing that it was for the sin that we were born in that Christ died; and so that original state of sin could never stain our souls again, He rose in triumphant victory.
If you think that crossdressing is "a" sin, forget it. How I'd love to write a book on that. CD's crucifying themselves because of what they think (and have been Led to believe by spiritual Leaders) is "the sin" of CDing! I have believed that way. God in Christ is concerned with our soul. Whether that soul wears a dress or pants is not the issue. Never has been in this New Covenant ushered in by Jesus Christ's sacrifice, and never will be. God neither approves or disapproves of CDing. It's just not the issue. If it was, then Deu. 22:5 would still be in operation. The issue is DEAD!!!! Now!! Let's get on with our Lives and stop condemning ourselves and feeling guilty every time we put on a skirt.
I've said all that I am going to say on the subject. I only hope that this has helped on person at Least. I am not seeking anyone's approval. I put these out in our Beta Chi Journal for what they are worth. I have been strongly advised by a Christian Pastor to "watch what I say and NEVER give an indication or imply that God approves of Crossdressing." As I have said above, it simply isn't the issue. I have a soul. You have a soul. My soul is hid with Christ in God. (Colossians 3:3) And that God approves of.
In crossdressers, I have met a most elegant and beautiful minority of our social structure in this world. Crossdressers are the elite of the male society. My love for our Community is impaled, pierced through my heart, and is compounded by God's love in me. (1 Corinthians Chapter 13)
I hope to set forth some scripture that I am now studying about God knowing every breath we take -- knowing the number of the hairs on our head and knowing every fiber of our being. I believe that I was born a CD. I had no choice in the matter. I'm glad that God made me the way he did. He makes NO mistakes. I escaped becoming a macho man. Dr. Peggy Rudd says on page 83 of her book: "(What these wives should realize is that) the CD has a Love for womanhood and not a Love of manhood and men." Read pages 66-67-68 as she addresses the subject, " Is Crossdressing Morally Wrong?" She says it all in those pages, and it will take me the next 10 years to say the same thing!
Grace and Lace is from my crossdresser soul's eye. I will be glad to print your comments, both positive and negative. Trust me.
Other upcoming subjects. "The Church's Relation to the CD." "The Ten commandments and Crossdressers" and countless others.
Let God bless you. Don't keep Him at arm's Length. Embrace Him just as you are. He Loves you so why not return that Love.
Always be assured of my Love and prayers.
Lee Frances
From The Beta Chi Newsletter
August 30, 1989
