PANTY STORY # 239

I have just seen your site and am relieved that I am not alone. I first experimented wearing women's underwear at around 14 and have since then found that the only way to orgasm is to fantasize about wearing women's underwear.

Over the years I have been found out by a lodger who found my lingerie collection, and by a friend's girlfriend who rifled through my drawers when they stayed over once. Both times were a nightmare and I have tried to stop it without success.

I accept it totally these days but am very careful not to be discovered. I once confessed to an ex-girlfriend and she was totally supportive at first, she even agreed to come with me to buy lingerie. She asked me to try several items on and was totally supportive but I think it may have had a longer term damaging effect on our relationship.

If things aren't going well in a relationship, being a cross-dresser doesn't help. We eventually split up and she even had the nerve to black-mail me by saying "what would people think if I told them you wear women's underwear". That was torture for a while, not knowing if or who she had spoken to.

Nowadays I don't care, i'm married to a beautiful woman who only just "knows" that I liked to wear women's underwear. She found out because I left a camisole top in my cupboard which as i'm over 6 foot was obviously mine. I froze and was only able to say (which was a lie) that in a previous relationship my ex-girlfirend liked me to dress up in lingerie occasionally.

Now it's something we don't feel the need to talk about probably because I'm scared what might happen and I don't think she would know how to deal with it.

I also enjoy being the masculine husband. I get round not wearing women's underwear more frequently by my choice of men's underwear, it is possible to buy exotic men's sating and lace underwear from the web. I do still like to go out occasionally wearing a full set of lingerie under my male clothes and (worryingly) fantasize about being exposed.

Thanks for hosting such a useful and supportive web site.

Best wishes

Mike - midlands, uk