Company Christmas Party in Realspace

Floating in a surreal sea of human beings
Prettied up and slicked back and beaded and velvetted and satined
and paired off two by two... except this one
disconnected observer
of the dancing and banter and head-on-his-shoulder ease
of the been married 20 years now
.
it's my birthday and nobody knows
.
After the hair is combed out and pulled back
and the makeup removed
and the jewelry put back in the box
and the satin skirt hung up
and the stockings rolled off and kicked across the room
and the black strappy high heels flung under the bed
Then,
in my sweats and ratty T-shirt
In the glow of a computer screen
Alanis on the CD
Cherry Garcia at my side (with my favorite spoon)
You await me
with ***s and {{{}}}s and LOLs
and I come alive
this is the reality I choose
Happy Birthday to me

16-NOV-1996
@1996

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