Pampering my femininity, Writing, reading, music, interpersonal relationship,
I am writing this because I have I think a unique experience. I'd like to share my experiences.
I have been a crossdresser for over 25 years. Actually I don't like that word because it is so incomplete. The reality is that I am so feminine and I am proud of it. It is not for some cheap sexual thrill...but it is a beautiful, aesthestically sexual experience.
I wear the indian saree with sleeveless blouses with the right amount of transparency so that my well-patterned bra-back is displayed. I also like to show off my midriff but just the right amount so that it is feminine...for women do not crudely show off their body...they do show off parts of it alluringly and aesthetically as I do.
AFTER WEARING ALL THESE I HAVE A DEEP EXPERIENCE OF TAKING THE CLOTHES I AM DRESSED IN FOR GRANTED...AND AS NORMAL FOR ME BEING A WOMAN! I take the clothes for granted and imagine and feel like a woman...not sex as a woman but life as a woman.
I have not been able to wear these clothes outside in public which is such a desire unto death...but Indian society is so unforgiving. When I am alone at home...I wear all these and like true Indian girls keep on adjusting the saree by covering the breasts again and again with the saree over the blouse.
I use Braun Silk-epil duo plus regularly once a month to get rid of my unwanted hair.
I want people to look at me and call me beautiful. If someone could say, "Rekha you look pretty. What a beautiful woman you are!" it would give me immense joy.
At night, whenever I can I wear sleeveless nighties. My favourite colours are fuchsia, lavender, blue, black and white too.
I like coffee colour and peach colour lipsticks and nail-polish. Nail polish I rarely use because of the trouble to conceal it after taking it off.
I have picked up a lot of feminine mannerisms. That is not difficult because inside I am very very feminine.
I am dying to grow long hair, have my ears pierced and my greatest desires are to be able to show off some "cleavage" and to get feminine areolas and nipples which I can hide like a woman does!